Though her time with us was short, Dylan was loved beyond words. From the moment we found out we were having a girl, she immediately became mommy's and daddy's girl before we even left the ultrasound appointment. She was loved from the moment we found out we were pregnant.
I want to give my husband a special father's day message. For 38 weeks, you showed love for someone you hadn't even met yet. The joy had from feeling her kick in my belly, to seeing her "wave" to us from the ultrasounds... to the worry when we found out there was something wrong. You stayed strong for all of us. When you held her for the first and only time, however sad, you gave her all your love. We made the hardest decision any parent can make, and we did that with Dylan in our hearts.
It's a different father's day for us. It's one of love for a child who is no longer with us. She never had a chance to get to know how much love was waiting her for when she arrived, but as an angel, I want to believe she knows now. She will always be daddy's and mommy's girl.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Saturday, June 04, 2011
Back to life
June 1st marked the start of a new month and a new 'normal' life. After four months off from work, I walked back into the chaos and pressures that I abruptly left not so long ago. I do have to say, I'm glad I visited my friends at the office a couple of times in the last month, because those definitely made walking through the revolving doors a little easier.
My visions of returning to work originally included a morning stop at the company day care center to drop off Dylan. Instead, I carry her in my heart as I go from front door to elevator to office. After a deep breath, I sit down at my desk and began my day.
I work with wonderful people. My boss, my coworkers... all kind and caring souls. I'm a lucky girl. The first day back is filled with welcoming hugs and genuine smiles that warm my heart. I have to transition back into my job, but I think it will be a painless process.
I was able to get through the first day thanks to the support of my friends. Day two, the same. By day three, it seems like I had never left.
I can honestly say it's good to be back.
My visions of returning to work originally included a morning stop at the company day care center to drop off Dylan. Instead, I carry her in my heart as I go from front door to elevator to office. After a deep breath, I sit down at my desk and began my day.
I work with wonderful people. My boss, my coworkers... all kind and caring souls. I'm a lucky girl. The first day back is filled with welcoming hugs and genuine smiles that warm my heart. I have to transition back into my job, but I think it will be a painless process.
I was able to get through the first day thanks to the support of my friends. Day two, the same. By day three, it seems like I had never left.
I can honestly say it's good to be back.
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